Sunday, December 2, 2012

Dreaded Seizures


Two seizures hit Ruby this past week. We hadn't seen any significant seizures for almost a year, until this past Monday and Tuesday.  I HATE seizures. I feel so incredibly helpless when Ruby seizes.  All I can do is sit there and hold her hand and pray she snaps out of it. It is awful to watch.

I had a few tears about the seizures on Tuesday. Things have been so stable with Ruby lately and seeing the seizures again reminds me of the reality of her seizure diagnoses. A seizure could take her anytime. Not a fun reality to live with. 

After the tears, I called neurology and told them what was going on. They recommended we increase the dose of one of Ruby's meds. I am always hesitant to do this for fear of overmedicating her and causing her to be a zombie. Even so, we followed the neurologists advice.

I am hesitantly thrilled to report that we haven't seen a seizure since Tuesday! I am so thankful the meds seemed to have halted the seizures for now.  I am also reminded that God is in control and I am not.
I surrender to his plan for my life and for Ruby's life. I am blessed by His peace and joy, even when tough stuff happens. I have my moments, but soon after, God reminds me that He holds my hand through all of this.

Ruby's giggles this week blessed my heart....



3 comments:

Laura Ryan Caden Will Kamryn said...

oh my word that giggle is infectious!
so many continued prayers for sweet Ruby. Glad that it seems the meds are working so far.

Shannon said...

I just love her - someday we're going to get our girls together - I swear they were separated at birth!

d said...

Kelli, it's moments like these when we realize how much we still hold on when we think we are surrendering, eh? I ache with you on the having to wait out the seizures. I hope this med works, and may you have courage to fight for that stubborn joy. Always good to read your words. Peace, spot