Thursday, July 22, 2010
My Toddler
It has hit me this last week that Ruby is not a baby anymore. As she grows we face new problems, such as her getting longer, bigger, harder to carry around. People don't bat an eye when you are carrying around a 6 month old with no muscle tone, but it is a different story when it is a 26 month old with no muscle tone that you are trying to balance on your hip. I have been grieving this past week; I think each new stage will bring some sadness because of new milestones that are lost. I never thought Ruby would be two and still not be able to hold her head up or roll over....tough stuff. We need time to be quiet, to cry and to grieve, but we couldn't survive without hope for the future. So, with God's grace, I choose to take one day at a time with Ruby. I choose to believe she will continue to make small improvements and I choose to believe the seizures will calm down someday. I choose to always try to remember that my Heavenly Father knows I am hurting and He will continue to give me peace and joy as I need it. After all, He loves Ruby's smiles and giggles even more than I do.
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Oh, what a great post. I am so sorry for your sadness. I can't imagine. What an honest post. We need more people like you - you are so true with your feelings and to what is happening in your life and I thank you for that. I hope people that are facing similar challenges will find comfort in your honesty and kindness. I will pray for you and Ruby.
Tough stuff indeed. No easy answers either, are there? I think it's so important to cry and grieve and then ask for that peace and hope that only HE gives. I bet the grieving will continuing to come in waves... and the hope too. Praying for you guys today and tomorrow!
We're praying for you, Kelli! Much Love -
My heart goes out to you guys. I feel your pain and yes I really can not feel it... I keep praying for a miracle for Ruby, for having a whole body and especially a whole mind... I want her "TO KNOW" some day that she IS a child of God and that God loves her and she FEELS His presence in her. But then God know all anyway.. I THANK GOD for you and Mark for being such great parents, because if it wasn't for you she would not be where she is now! In a wonderful home full of love... God Bless you and Have a GREAT DAY in JESUS !!!
love & prayers, Aunt Bev
My heart goes out to you guys. I feel your pain and yes I really can not feel it... I keep praying for a miracle for Ruby, for having a whole body and especially a whole mind... I want her "TO KNOW" some day that she IS a child of God and that God loves her and she FEELS His presence in her. But then God know all anyway.. I THANK GOD for you and Mark for being such great parents, because if it wasn't for you she would not be where she is now! In a wonderful home full of love... God Bless you and Have a GREAT DAY in JESUS !!!
love & prayers, Aunt Bev
My heart goes out to you guys. I feel your pain and yes I really can not feel it... I keep praying for a miracle for Ruby, for having a whole body and especially a whole mind... I want her "TO KNOW" some day that she IS a child of God and that God loves her and she FEELS His presence in her. But then God know all anyway.. I THANK GOD for you and Mark for being such great parents, because if it wasn't for you she would not be where she is now! In a wonderful home full of love... God Bless you and Have a GREAT DAY in JESUS !!!
love & prayers, Aunt Bev
Rejoice in the Lord always, I will say it again Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all, the Lord IS NEAR. Do not be anxious about anything but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God which transcends ALL understanding will guard your heart and mind in Christ Jesus.
I am praying for you Kelli and praying that the peace of God will rule in your heart. God wants to hear our honest feelings just like you tell a best friend, He wants you to come to Him with everything...even sadness and anger. He knows that we aren't going to like everything that He decides for our life so it's okay for us to tell Him that. He's prepared. But He's also prepared to show us the good...even if it takes awhile.
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