Ruby and I are at DeVos Children's Hospital, waiting for her first dose of her ACTH injections. They have to run a bunch of tests first to make sure there are no infections anywhere in her body and then they will give her the first shot. The nurse will give it to her today and then tomorrow I have to give it to her and Mark will do it on Sunday. I am dreading giving my daughter a shot! I hope it goes okay; I really am not sure if I can do it or not, but I guess I am going to have to give it a try.
I was nervous when I got up this morning. I think I am nervous because I know the shots will hurt Ruby and I know that she could have some nasty side effects from them (weight gain, irritability, hunger, high blood pressure, immo deficiencies...) but I think I am most nervous because I know if this doesn't work then there are not a lot of other great things to try. I am praying for peace and I am trying not to dwell on the "what ifs..." because it doesn't help to worry about things that might not happen, but it's hard not to. For now, I will choose to think about today-- that is all I can handle right now.
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Kelli! HUGS HUGS and more HUGS!!! Continuing to pray pray pray!!!!!
We are praying for Ruby and you too. God will provide and your desire to help Ruby will be greater then your fear of giving her a shot.
Bernie & Arlene
Praying for peace! Glad you had a great birthday dinner!
Praying the side effects are non-existent for Ruby and that the shots do help. Kelli, I just can't imagine how anxious you are about all of it... you're right in that it's best just to take things one day at a time. (((HUGS)))
One day at a time, hon. We're praying that the shots help with the spasms. Do your best witht the shots-that's all you can do. IF you can't do it, we'll figure it out so that you don't have to. Love you!
Kelli, you just gave yourself the best advice - one day at a time - don't look beyond this minute. I had to give myself a shot in my stomach daily when the chemo brought my blood counts down too low. I am horribly afraid of needles but when it was something I had to do, God gave me the strength I needed to do it. He's got your back! :)
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